flex sig.

So I had my flex sig. done last week. I chose to be put under anesthesia because I didn't want to have to deal with feeling SUPER degraded being awake during such a procedure. The prep consisted of drinking 1 bottle of magnesium citrate and giving myself 2 enemas 2 hours before my procedure. I got the magnesium citrate down in two big chugs. No problem there. I was expecting something close to the prep I had to do for a colonoscopy, but no. It took about 5 hours for it to start doing ANYTHING and it still wasn't that bad. I was actually kind of concerned that I wasn't going to be cleaned out enough for the procedure. The enemas were worse though. I don't know who thought it was a good idea for someone with ULCERS (aka open fucking wounds) in their colon to basically fucking squirt salt water into them. It was painful and extremely uncomfortable putting it mildly. I probably did half of each bottle. I knew I wasn't going to be able to do any more. My mom called the doctor to make sure I was going to be prepped enough for the procedure and they told me to come on in. I got back rather quickly and was told that my doctor was going to have to "feel around" to make sure I was cleaned out enough. I was pretty pissed. I mean...that was the entire reason I was choosing to go under anesthesia anyway, was so I didn't have to have my doctor "feel around" anything inside of me :gags:

I was wheeled back to the procedure room and was very glad to find out that my doctor wasn't going to be doing any "feeling around" I was put under and the procedure was underway! I remember waking up and stumbling to the restroom....then going shopping with my mom and picking up my prescription and getting food. I felt fine!

My mom said they showed her some pictures and I was perfectly cleaned out, which I still can't believe. My doctor came to the conclusion that "The Apriso is not working." FUCKING DUH DUDE! So I was put on prednisone.

I don't like to admit it though, as much as I hate them ... steroids are currently my best friend.

The first thing I told my current doctor when I met with him was that I did not want, under any circumstances, to be put on steroids, EVER AGAIN. When I first was diagnosed I was put on prednisone. It, among other medicines, made me better. However, I started to grow a moustache, and I got cushing's syndrome. I looked RIDICULOUS. I know it sounds vain of me, but no girl wants those things to happen, let's be real.

At any rate, I have another appointment with my doctor this coming Tuesday. That will be two weeks of the steroids, so it shouldn't be enough time to develop the symptoms I had last time. I remember him telling me before starting my procedure that if we found that the Apriso hadn't been working I would be put on steroids. Then we would have to make an appointment to discuss other medicine options (since we've already found two that don't work...) that I guess have the potential to have more serious side effects. *sigh*

Just cut my fucking colon out and lets be done with this kay?

so much pain.

I am suffering right now. I need to be put out of my misery. I have made over 10 trips (make that 12...) to the bathroom within the hour.

I have an appointment in one week for a "flexible signoidoscopy". From what I understand, it's a step down from a colonoscopy. You don't need to be under anesthesia for the procedure, but I'm choosing to be put under regardless.

I'm really nervous.....